Relaxing

Took a bath today!!!! First time in like 9 years! So great. Honestly almost cried. 

Living LIfe

So excited about every day lately. I am down over 100 pounds and loving it. I will have to buy new clothes again soon, makes me happy. Today I'm going to go do something with my daughter that I haven't done ever. I'm going to go sledding with her.

Further Scans

I got a call today. Apparently the liver needs to be scanned better to determine that it's nothing or something. Wish me luck.

The Humps

It's been a while. I've been having some humps to go up and over. A few. To say the least. I want to start out by saying that I am still happy I had the surgery. No matter what the humps may be. I'm a little over three months out and I have lost 100 pounds. On the other side, I've had some issues. I've been struggling with dehydration. In and out of the of the ER getting IV fluids to get rehydrate. Then I got really, really sick. I was dry heaving and vomiting bile for a week. No eating, barley drinking and laying in bed for a week. My mother (Thank God for her) took me to the hospital. After being checked in, hooked up to IV, pumped full of medications for nausea and stomach pains, having a endoscopy and CT, I find out that I have a Ulcer and some non urgent lesions on my liver. A damn Ulcer made me feel like I was dying and had me in the hospital for four damn days. (A result of the surgery) I'm now on medicine for my Ulcer and feeling much better. And in feeling better I'm seeing all the benefits of this surgery. Being down 100 pounds feels amazing. I feel better about myself. I have some energy finally. I got to ride a ride with my daughter for the first time in her 7 years of life. If your interested in doing this surgery, I will tell you, do it. Make sure you know all the details, get fully educated. But it's worth it. It's worth having your life back. Feeling like a person who can function again. There are humps that you have to get over as with anything. But is it worth it in the long wrong. So worth it.

Wow

Surgery is done and over. Felt like I got hit by a truck for two damn days. It was awful. I was outta of it for a bit because of the medications and my poor daughter was crying. But alas I'm home. And things are well. I'm feeling better. I'm drinking my protein shakes and eating my jello. Things are all up here from here. One day at at time. So what they did when I got to the hospital is they put me on an IV, oxygen Monitors, catheter and during the surgery there was a tube down my throat. Luckily I was asleep through most of it. Otherwise I dot know how I would have handled that. Only two days in the hospital and that seemed like two days to long. But I get why they kept me there. Always better safe then sorry. I don't have stitches or staples for them to take out because they will dissolve which is nice. I do have to give myself shots for the next few days just to prevent a blood clot. But again it could be worse.

Two Days

I'm so ineradicably excited that it's going down in two days. How awesome is that. Two days and I start my new life. I was in NYC for all of last week. Walking in the awful heat and hopefully losing tons of weight with any luck. Get the ball rolling early! I want to send my love and thanks out to everyone who has been supporting me through this. Ya'll are the best. Before pictures to come later today!

Ready Ready

July 17th here I come! I have my pre-op appointment coming up tomorrow, then it's going on my surgery date. I'm so excited. I cant wait to have the surgery and start my new journey toward being a healthier Mom, Sister, Daughter, and Friend. Just before the surgery I will take a photo of myself in a bathing suit or shorts and a shirt. Something to do the before. And as I progress I will add more pictures for the afters. I look forward to the after photos. My daughter has started playing with my belly and watching it "jiggle" because she wont be able to do that soon. Her words. She's also laying on my belly telling me how much she's going to miss it because it's so comfy. I have been explaining to her while it's fun for her, it's not for me. And then reminding her of all the fun stuff I will be able to do when I have lost the weight and am heading towards my goal weight. 180 pounds here I come!!!!