Day by day

Been going for little walks here and there. Need to start getting serious with it. I'm ready. More then ready. Had a ton of blood work done they other day as well as my EKG. Just a psych avail left and then loose that last bit of weight and I will be able to schedule my surgery. My friend who started this journey with me, but is having her surgery local instead of me who's going out of town due to my insurance, has her surgery scheduled already and I'm so happy for her. At the same time slightly pissed at my insurance because it's taking so much longer and I have to wait more. I keep trying to tell myself it's coming and it will be okay but I cant help but be like what the hell it should be happening now. I'm working so hard for this why cant I have it soon. BUT alas it will happen when it happens. Just have to take my time and wait it out. Do what I have to do and it will happen in it's due course.

Rolling Right Along

My appointment was amazing. Any questions that I might have had are all answered, and now I am on the ball. I know that I still need to loose about 20 pounds,I have to get some blood work done as well as a EKG and a counseling session. Then I will be set to schedule a surgery date. Im so beyond excited. I'm ready to do this surgery and start my life. To start spending time with my daughter doing the things she wants to do. Parks and rides and fun stuff. Things that other mothers can do that I cant because of my size. They talked about the size of my stomach, which they showed me a little dispenser cup from the top of children's medicine bottles. It's gonna be soooooo tiny! They said that I am looking at a 100+ pounds weight loss in the first year. I can feel my "weight" being lifted. :) My next appointment is in May and I'm excited as hell. I'm going to try to loose as much of this weight as I can so it isnt going to take longer for the surgery. Healing time they said varies for each person, but that I am not a High Risk patient so that I only have to be in the hospital for two days. Not all that long considering. I thought it was going to be much worse. Keep your fingers crossed for me and wish me luck!